this is going to be a very important year
I already knew that was going to be an important year when we crossed into this decade at New Years, but just a couple of days ago when I crossed into a new decade of my own, I really felt that it was going to be true. Sometimes I have a hard time taking it all in; and actually allowing myself to feel this is something I constantly struggle with. I feel gratefulness fully, however, and in some moments it hits me like a wave that, wow, this is my life. But then I have a hard time holding on to that feeling - not the gratefulness part - but the feeling that I’m allowed to feel this way. Why am I someone who gets to love their life? I find it hard to feel deserving sometimes. But I’m going to try and embrace everything that this life has in store for me, feel deserving, feel thankful, and be open.
Yes, this is going to be a very important year. Somewhat overwhelming, but mostly in good ways, I felt that the best way to really let it all soak in was to get away for my (very significant) birthday - to a place we love. Relax, reflect, and unplug. So I spent 4 days without opening a laptop, without reading even one email, and without worrying about my to-do list. Thanks to a team now behind me at work, I was able to let go of this responsibility for the first time in over 9 years. And thanks to a loving partner, I was able to enjoy the time, talk about life, read actual paper books, swim in thermal pools overlooking the snowy alps, take a meditation class, and take walks in the forest past a frozen lake.
I was able to take in all of the things that will happen this year, and wonder in awe that how out of all the days in my entire life, the official start date of the biggest project I’ve ever been a part of (and after over 2 years of process), was set for the day of my 40th birthday.
This is how we’re getting back to the subject of this blog. The house.
It was just 3 days prior to my big day when I got a notice from the geometra titled “Inizio Lavori” (work start date) which was a notice from the comune of the official “comunicazione” … that the official date now filed in the city records was listed as none other than my birthday.
Although I know in my last post that they’d initially mentioned this date as a possibility but then moved it earlier (in which we were able to go out last week and put in the last stakes which outlined the footprint of the house), but then a final test had to be done of the land, and the paperwork sent in. So, it ended up that the date was set (as perhaps destined) on the same day that I was “iniziata” (started) many years ago.
I think somehow that we may be soulmates.